I'm very happy just now, you know why?! because I don't have anything to loose.
some minutes ago, I lost my everything, my memories.......

I'm better today. Last night I cried for some minutes and today I feel better. No one can imagine how terrible I felt last night.
Well, I have some reasons for my feelings but the fact is it's about some months that I don't know why I'm sad. I have a package of bad feelings. The most important reason is, I feel the love of no one is true, everyone are looking for a chance to betray each other. I thought someone told me lie for 2 years, or no he changed his mind. I regret myself because he wasn't the true one, I mean, he isn't romantic at all, and I felt alone when I saw girls with their boy friend walk happily! Oh my god how stupid I am, aren't I?

Today I understood how alone I am. beside I don't know what should I do, because if I try hard for something, at the end I face to a problem, and if I don't try to do anything, I  have nothing.
No organization have not any coordinate with each other it caused really serious problems! I actually didn't made any problems, but because of the lawlessness, it makes me some many disasters. no one can help me and I am really alone in whole of my life. I feel terrible.